update

"i have to go take a shower. I'll be back soon" he says. What do I think? dear god I wish I was in that shower with you @_@


I'm really glad he is back though. I missed him a lot more than I would have thought. Vacation is going to suck a lot without him. It's going to be a lot of people trying to push me back into something i don't want to be in. A had a year and a half to change his ways and he didn't. I warned him time and time again and he just laughed it off. Well now he has to deal with his decision. I am so much happier now than i have ever been in the past. I have a man who cooks for me because he wants to. D is nice to me and i don't have to force him to hold my hand in public. he doesn't change when people are around or treat me like crap. He likes to snuggle and makes me smiles all the time. He calls me. And leaves me cute messages. He is encouraging and helps me relax. He actually thinks of my needs in addition to, and most of the time, before his own. Oh and we got on dates and have fun. Not one of them ended in me being angry, sad or crying. Not once did i have to tell him not to drink or embarrass me. D might just be the best thing to happen to me.

My thumb is getting better. I haven't been wearing a brace while i'm at work. Using it is really hard. it's weird. I have to try and make a brace that will work for fencing since getting hit could hurt it more. Going to bring my brace on vacation cause god only knows what Bryan has planned for me. i already have to pack a mudding outfit.

I miss my friends and really want to get together with people. Like i wish it would stop snowing so i could have people over. Like just a guys night of beer and video games. maybe movies. idk.

I'm trying to get more drawings done. a lot of people on deviant art keep asking me to post more so i guess i'm good? or at least people like what i do. I don't think i'm that good.

I have a ridiculous amount of laundry to do tomorrow. Like 4 loads to do and about 8 loads to put away. It's that bad. I'm so over tired from working like 9 hours a day everyday. looking forward to tomorrow and tuesday off.